I'm serious. The NCAA, Freeh, MSM, and B1G all hide behind "the children" and "the victims" in their evisceration of Penn State and its "culture".

Putting myself back into the mentality of a victim (I have been abused in my past by a man of considerable power in my community, not getting into details of it, they're irrelevant here, and the issue has been resolved legally), I would utterly and completely hate myself. All the good people Joe Paterno has inspired, all of the grand things he did for those less fortunate, everything he stood for as a man among demons (businessmen). If *my* testimony had the side effect of bringing this man down, how could I live with myself? I would seriously question whether or not facing my tormenter in public was truly and honestly worth it. I want my abuser to pay. I do not want everything he was ever associated with to burn in my "name".

Now, suppose I'm more vindictive, and I do want everything my abuser touched to "burn", how do I rationalize the fact that dozens, hundreds, maybe even thousands of peoples lives have now been negatively impacted by my actions? You know how I feel? I feel like I just allowed a man who destroyed my life to destroy thousands more.

What Jerry Sandusky did was monstrous. He himself is not a monster. He is a sick man who preyed on those he held power over.

So no, the actions of the past 12 days would not vindicate me. They would not empower me. They would make me question whether or not coming forward was worth it. But, I guess no one actually cares about my opinions.

But I guess everyone else knows what is best for me, right?